Lost again

I haven't really had much time to do my customary introspection, but I've been doing some of it here and there... the results are far from glorious.

I allowed myself to lose track of my real purpose down at the church group. True, when I started going there all I wanted was to meet new people, since all of my friends had gone off and gotten married and had started to have kids. So I made a few friends, and got more involved. Then something funny happened: I fell in love. I didn't really planned it. It just happened.

But, as most of my crushes go, she is totally not interested. And why should she be? Why should ANY of them should be? Even a street bum has more to offer to a girl than me. Ok, that's not true, but do I feel sad that there is so little interest in me from the opposite sex.

That got me thinking, and I've concluded that this is not the best time for me to have a girlfriend. I think I should stay off from chasing girls for a while. I have a lot of issues to work out. I need to really, really improve myself. I want to travel, learn new things and focus myself on serving the Lord. And I need to remember that He is the only one who will decide what the rest of my life will be like.